I am going back to... what?

09 Feb 2009, man, I am going to remember this date forever in my life. At least I am trying to embed it in my blog.

Today marked the new journey of us (foundation year 2009) to embark in our 2nd sem. Darn, I finished my 1st sem already. How good am I in my sem 1 is still yet to be known (until tomorrow).

Last weekend, me and my housemates went to Genting Highland to get rid of our boredom during holiday. It was wonderful to have friends around us to enjoy the rides. Somehow, I felt that Genting Theme Park has lost its thrills. When i hop in the tremendous-electrifying 'flying coaster', which is suppose to be its signature attraction, i felt nothing more than just a thrill. Perhaps, I am already 'immune' to this ride. Anyway, it was really glad to have friends along with me during the trip.



The next day, we went back to Penang. It was a long trip but enjoyable with a capital 'E'. Seriously, I enjoy the trip back to Penang, We laughed to our own jokes, made fun on each other and still we kept our sense of humour that made the journey great. Hahahahaha....

5 friends going back to Penang. Sempat ambik gambar tengah drive...huhuhu..

Sunset... It's so sweet!

Penang Bridge. Always like this...

Now I am back in Penang with new same hope, like all medic students hope for, to be successful in this semester. Chayo!!!

Boring

Damn it...

I am so bored. Seriously, I am bored right now because I have nothing to do (duh...). I've been spending 1/3rd of my holiday with nothing... Oh my god... I've wasted my life. I should have think of doing something during the holiday. I feel so free right now, so free that I am trapped in my own freedom.

To be frank, I do did something past few days. But nothing significant to my life. You know, outing, jalan-jalan cari makan... and more. I also watched a few movies using my ASUS laptop great screen (thanks dad!). I have a lot of movies but I am not a movie-guy. I do not stay at night to watch movie... and I am not the type of man who spend few ringgits for a movie in cinema. Unless there is something that is really interesting.

Talking about movie, this year I am anticipating for 3 movies: Dragonball, Transformers 2 and Wolverine. I can't wait to watch these 3 movies... (bila lagi movie2 ni nak kluar...)
I've watched the trailer for Dragonball and from there I can say that it may not be as good as everyone expect. When Fox anounced about the Dragonball movie production, i was really eager and looking forward to watch it... Somehow, i am dissapointed with the trailer. But still, i am waiting for the movie (because I still love Dragonball manga <--- one of my favourite comic).

Besides, I am also done watching House M.D. season 5. I downloaded some of the season 5 episodes during the examination week (so brave). House is still great ( I think Greg is getting better, he started to be like a human now in the latest season). The story line was just so great. Twist with another twist and ended up twingling until House came and straighten up the thread. Great!

Anyway, I'll update myself with what I am doing in next few days.

Chow!

Me, myself and him

Hi guys. I am sorry that i have not update my blog since last year. I have been very busy with my examination that i could not spare some time to think of any idea of what to blog. Apologize.

Last 30 days had been really exhaustive, hectic days. Examination always make me feel that way and to tell you guys the truth, this is the first time that I feel scared for examination. I have never had felt the cold blood running through my veins since I sat for my PTS (it was the Primary 3 examination that allows student to skip Primary 4 direct to Primary 5). I was scared for my biology paper. But, thanks god that I was able to finish the paper and did it with peace and calmness. I wonder why did I so scared for that paper... Perhaps, the "burden" that I carried with the title when I got highest mark for that subject during mid-sem exam cause me to feel scared. Anyway, my examination is over and I got 2 weeks to enjoy myself! Yahoo!

So, this 2 weeks, I planned to spend one week staying with my foster family at Banting. To those of you who had read my previous post and poem in my new blog, and wonder what happen to both of us right now, we already back to square one. My foster father (Abah) had apologized to me when I told him about this. He said that he did not realize what he did had hurt me so much. He also said that he was stressed at that time. I forgive him for now I know that my "sixth sense' is right and true. I am not the one who caused him to be stressed or angry or acting like he was hating me, but it is actually the new guy. I am glad that now I am able to get rid of these feelings (guilt, scared, sad) that haunting me since July 2008. Thank you God. This is the biggest test from Him that i've been through.

Now, I am happy with Abah and I am really glad that we are back the way that we used to be.
We chat and joke with each other the way we used to be.
We share our opinions and thoughts the way we used to be.
We sit and dine together the way we used to be.
We work together the way we used to be.

Thank you Abah for taking care of me, for loving me as your own son, and most of all...
Thank you Abah for your love and sacrifices...

I don't care anymore...

Hello there everyone, it's been a long time since the last time I updated my blog. It's been a very busy month... Studying and revision fill up my schedule now for this month. I am having exam next month (starts at 12 Jan 2009). It is our final sem 1 exam.

I am a bit stress with my study, work and relationship. I don't know why things happened the way that I didn't expect. It's already the end of the year of 2008. Thank God for His grace and love that I am still able to be myself till the end of the year. Many things had happened this year. From my relationship with my family and extended families, friends and relatives, enemies and nemesis, God and all other people around me. I keep on reminiscing my pasts and there are a lot of things that sometime I want to redo and undo. Not that I regret what had happened to my life, but I know that I could have make them much better.

I don't know why I have been affected by a lots of people this year. I mean, seriously, I have known and become very closed to a few people. And I can sense that my life has change because of them. I am still wondering whether I will be the person that I wanted to be.

This year marked the 2nd year since I met and become one of the member of my foster family. I am very glad that I have a family that is able to love me as their family member too despite all the differences that we have. Thank you God for letting me to choose the path of my life and guiding me all these while. I really love my foster family, especially Abah and Ibu. I treat them the same way I treated my own parents. I respect them as my own dad and mom. I still remember my prayer during new year eve last year; I want to learn how to love all the people that I know and I want God to teach me how to love unconditionally. And guess what, I believe this is a part of His plan for me. Knowing Abah and Ibu, I have learned a lot on how to love other people, unconditionally.

I don't know how I become very closed to my foster parents. I guess, it's about sincerity and "give and take" in a relationship. Well, when I accepted them as my own parents, I didn't expect the same thing as I expect from my own parents. I know my limits, however, whenever they need me there as a son, I always try best to be there for them. Oh ya, not to forget, sacrifices also play a very vital roles in a relationship.

However, since my foster parents met a new person (that's gonna be part of the family too), my foster dad changed but not my foster mom. I know he is going to be quite important to the family, but my foster dad started to be someone else that I don't really know quite well. He scolded me once and I don't mind because it shows me that my foster dad loves me. I really love him (platonically) and I hope he still loves me the way he used to love me.

Me? I don't know why I have the feeling of "hatred" over the new person. I know that there is something wrong with him but I could not point it out. I already mentioned this to my foster mom and she also agreed with me. I know there is something wrong with him and I could not make the head or tail of it. I am certainly not jealous over him. But there is something bad that's gonna happen and I SEE THAT'S COMING (It's a gift and a curse to me).

Anyway, I really want to get back to them and be the way that we used to be. I have never regret knowing them. I always tell myself that I am the luckiest person in the world to have another parents to be my parents. I really love my foster family. And now, I really miss them...

Let me end this post with something I wrote during my way back to my sweet little hometown:

My memories
keep bothering me
I didn't know that what I've done
could hurt you so much

All the past
That had happened to you
Are haunting me every nights and days
I wish I could put all of them to my grave

I am sorry
I give it all away
To get back to you
Forgive me
Let's start all over again
Please come back to me


This is actually lyric that I wrote... but haven't got time to put rhythm into it.

Okay, that's all folk. Happy New Year to everyone. May The Almighty blesses and brings joy to you all.

Yesterday - Today

Hi guys. It's Friday and it is my day again to sit and think about something to type for my blog.
This week, my life have been out of focus for quite sometime. I don't know what keeps on bothering me. But, anyway I am still happy of what I am now (this is for sure... hahaha)

A few days before, my friend and I had a good conversation. We were talking about "TECHNOLOGIES". It is so much fun talking about the fast-moving gadgets and technologies. I mean, see how much technologies changed and improved. It is so fast that Intel needs to come out with Quad-Processor :) .

Anyway, I am just bluffing. You guys know exactly what I am talking about, rite.

Here are some of the stuffs that me and my friend talked about:

1) Pendrive @ Thumbdrive @ Portable Media Storage

I still remember the very first time I had my first pendrive. It was in the year of 2005 (when I was in Form 5). I was VERY HAPPY to have a PENDRIVE. And you know what, it was 128MB (the largest capacity for a pendrive at that time is 512MB, huhuhu). At that time, I felt like I was the most advanced guy in the school (actually I fell into 2nd place because my friend who introduced me to "PENDRIVE" got it first). I was very proud "showing off" my pendrive to my friends and also to my teachers (smug). I put it around my neck and walked around the school with pride (God, please forgive me for acting like that). Hahaha... And guess how much did I pay for it?

RM144 cash for a 128MB silver-Kingston pendrive! It cost me my fortune at that time. And, of course at that time I was "sponsored" by my parents, not like today :)

Now, in 2008, you can get a PENDRIVE with 16GB for RM119. WTF??!!! It is 125 times larger than my very FIRST PENDRIVE and cheaper by RM25. Huhuhu...

2) External Hard Disk @ Portable Hard Disk

When I heard there is one thing call "External Hard Disk" in the year of 2006, and its ability to store massive amount of data, documents and files, I already set in my target-of-the-year list to have one by the end of 2006. I saved my money to buy an EXTERNAL HARD DISK.

Finally, in September 2006, I bought one EXTERNAL HARD DISK during PC FAIR at Kuching, Sarawak.

And guess how much did it cost?

RM289 for a 40GB EXTERNAL HARD DISK. OMG!!! I spent another portion of my fortune to have extra HARD DISK. Thank goodness my parents supported me at that time. Fuhhh...

And recently, I bought my THIRD EXTERNAL HARD DISK in Penang. Guess how much did I spend this time?

RM260 for a 320GB EXTERNAL HARD DISK. Yeah, it is very impressive as I love to collect intertainment medias e.g. musics & movies. And I am really grateful for having an EXTERNAL HARD DISK that is 8 times larger than my first one. Hohoho...

I am very sure that there are still a lot of things that I did not mention but you know what they are. Technologies keep on improving and advancing as years pass by. But, it is really funny to observe and reflect the moment that we have something that we use now. You know, they costed you a fortune before but now, they are things that can be buy with cheaper price tahn before with GREATER VALUES. They are going to keep on CHANGING and they are GETTING BETTER and BETTER.

So, folks watch what you are buying and remember the year. In the next future, you will laugh at what you have buy today (if you know what I mean).

Peace out.